shock to feel – after all these years
those arms around me;
that dream, that phantom, that despair –
I had no words and couldn’t shed a tear,
I saw you and I saw you not;
I wanted to say, but could not –
I guess you think I hate you now,
and that is probably for the best;
better than having gone with the flow
and uttered that impossible vow
destroying what peace of mind I’ve left